Wednesday, November 28, 2007

oh maya, congratulations on making your boyf angry at you(?)
for going missing; for rejecting his calls; for ignoring his msges.
& ltr he's gonna say ' why do i feel that you dont care/love me anymore?'
& im such a fartard that reply 'ok whatever'
then ltr, all those shit stuff will happen again&again&again.
imy.sorrry;wth?

enchanted was a.w.e.s.o.m.e!

i miss fikaaaa!
i miss natasha.natalia.saratini
& whoever i didnt meet for donkey years.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

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i would notice detail you cannot see.
i cannot control my joy when you are so cute cracking your oh-so-lame jokes
oh boy, im under your charm,
i'd chase cars for you every morning & night
its been one-two-three-four-five-six-seven-eight-nine-TEN months
since im with you dearest.
im scared t knw the ending because im weak, really.
i do not knw whats going t happen in the future
but right nw, your
the cover of my magazine, headlines t my story & my living entertainment
for i'd listen t all your lame jokes that crack me up
& even if they weren't funny, my tummy still tickles!
i'm incredibly happy.blindly happy indeed & am deeply in love
i had so much fun of you for ten mths that my feets were soaring in the air
you knw i would scrub the floor all my life just t see you giggle
you are really cutee
i feel so blessed t have you, i swear t god
you loved me when i didnt love myself
you listen t my never ending dramas
you shws so much care & concern for my well being
& you go thru ups & dwns together w me
t sum it all up, your everything i could ever ask for
& most importantly you make me happy, dancing on air happy
i believe unlike the majority, you can be trusted
as you knw, trust, for my case dont come easy
love, happy ten monthsary!
you do wonders t my life
& im missing you already

Sunday, November 25, 2007

pretty pretty week i had!
job hunting w friends-shopping w the family- dates w boyf!<3
& jyeah a trip t the zooo w love.alas! aftr hw many donkey years since i visited that place
babylove, thanks again for bringing me there
let the picture do the talking now;

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theres dozens more photos but as usual,
im l.a.z.y t post it all up.
& hell im bored.bored.bored now
im watching japanese taiwan shws one aftr another
i should ve follow bf for that enchanted movie whats more its free
but no im not regretting or what cos its one whole happy family that is going;
watching it together w me, so yeahh i rather rot at home
who knws i may urinated at that place out of fearness
ahh merepek. okay diam.
& i cant wait for tmr!

one more day baby!(:

Friday, November 23, 2007

& smthg's wrong, really.

friendster is being such a gay!
all my section on 'abt me' is gone; knn luh
i ll blog again when i feel like it
& i sense something amiss.
i have a long chat w lesbain&m.m just nw
i miss them really
i miss school gfs tooo):

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

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im lazing ard at home the whole day
facing the comp 24/7!
precisely because ive gt no cash w me &
not a single soul ask me out.
i swear friendster is s gay that im bored of it.
& surprisingly that dimpleguy whom i used t
adore in the past IMed me yestrdy.
he turn me off, seriously.
saying how he misses me & calling me his sweetheart all.
yikes,dickhead.

tell me should i cut that bangs fringe? or whtever they call it
because my fringe's irritating luh .

ps: babylove, are you still alive?

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

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ouh god, pls let my phone beep.
a call saying that i have a job waiting for me.
i hope i do not have t wait forever for those jobs.
for, i swear i have used up all my $ & savings.
i feel real bad asking mommy and the father for money every single time.
& seriously, i should stay at home & wait patiently for job's calls
cos everyday im out,
theres bound t be somethg that catches my eye.
like yestrday when i was waiting for love,
i bought one top.
i'm out today & again i bought
another 3 more tops. shit lah kan,

babylove, i want t g zoo luhhahha!
jyeah okay bye prettyhead

Sunday, November 18, 2007

it's been a pretty looong hectic week this week.
okay lets re-cap;
monday & tuesday was the class chalet.
ouh i so love 4E5 that 36 girls+5boys,
but what a pity i didnt stay overnight.oh well.
theres more photos in rad's camera.
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wednesday was TPrawks.
i wasnt in the same grp as gfs): but im in the same grp as love.
oh yeahh it was ubeeer funnn
(& thats bcos there's love! okay diam)
& oh theres dance&all.pffffft
mark the date baby!
14november07:our first dance ever& my
oh so first time meeting my in-laws(your sista!)
thursday was a date w love.
first was movie at marina & off t clak quay
& he went t his prom.
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on friday, accompanied mommmy t changi airport
& get her stuffs done & off t changi beach & tampines mall.
saturday was suppose t have outing with gfs t
escape theme park but somehow
they were too tired so it was cancelled.

next weeks gonna be another week.
finding for job tmr w gf.
oh baby, im getting a job
lets buy a hse asap.haha

oh, i miss love!

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

i only had eyes on you, i swear

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acquaintance we are during the pri school day
nvr did i thought you would be part of me someday
being seperated for three yrs didnt bring joy nor misery t me
as you are just someone who doesnt make a diff in my life
but everything changes when you found me & i found you three yrs ltr

in the cyberworld is where we met
talking t you makes my world feels so right
& i cannot get enough of it
hopeing for you t be online is my everday routine

at tht time, i wasnt sure why i felt this way
i knew i like you & i knew you kinda like me too
but i figure it was too goood t be true
&im not sure if we were meant t be
still, i made my way just t see if i could find out
you are the one for me

16 febuary 07!
the day we saw each other aftr three yrs
you smiled and say "hello" &
i did just the same
what a pleasure you showed t me
but little did i knw as we talked along,
my heart open t yours &
went t sing a song on the 19th.

thats when two becomes one
you made me smile & you made me laugh
i found you so special in many way
you brought a ray of sunshine int my life
& i felt so happy

thinking of you is what i do each day
to savour the moment in everyway
you brought me up from those misery
& now i am made nothing but you<3
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Bukan yang biasa.
Karena masih ada cerita tentang masa yang indah.
Kumohon kau mengerti.
cobalah kau tabahkan hati
mungkin disaat ini cinta kita sedang diuji.
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ps:i dont knw if im ready but but
i want t meet you on friday if not on wednesday or thursday
cos i cant take it anymore.i just miss you so much!

Sunday, November 11, 2007

shoopings-the cousins-meeting ups-movie marathon w gfs at fad's place-bratz!
thats how i spend life the past few days.
& hell yeah my wallet is drying.pffft
next wk's gonna be a pretty hectic week for me.
class chalets-theme park w gfs![:-tp rawks-cousins outing.
well yeah, i need a job but im lazy.wtf luh


i rmbr the past, i miss the past
when we're not tgether yet.
& theres [.-- .. .-.. .-.. / -.-- --- ..- / -- .. ... ... / -- . ..--..]
& oh how we make each other feels jealous,
& how we hurt each other
& how we hinted at each other saying how we love each other;
leaving all those clues behind!
& how i always tell him not t miss me aftr
ending every convo .
& how we accompany each other through the nights
when we are unable t sleeeep
& how i remember counting down his birthday
& how he comforted me in any way he could
& how we criticize each other
[most of the time he criticizes me!]
dumbfcuk,i miss him even though its only
eight days since i saw him.knn
oh & now he disappear t i dunt knw where.
oh well, i love him though.


& hell yeah,

i miss norafikah toooo like very much!
its been 564789243 days since i saw her.
i want another outing w her pretty please.
okayyy byeeee humans!

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

i'm in the process of burning all my books,
[okay bedek]
what abt you lovelyheads out there?
im so not used t life now.
i feel so-oh-uncomfortable w/o studying everynight.
w/o waking up early in the morning for school.
for now i ll be thinking wher i ll be heading t the next day,
who i ll be going out w , wht i ll be wearing & yadeeyadee.

i ve got no mood yesterday,
aftr knowing where i stand in class for prelim result.
how dumb can i get .
god, please let me have good grades for O lvls!
but having a day out w the gf just brighten up my day[:
not only my day but her day too.
supposingly planning t have movie dates withe gfs today
but some couldnt make it due t some reason.
& im not feeling well too,
it's like there's cheeseballs or muttonballs stuck in my throat.

oh & i swear online shopping is like so addictive.
i need a job asap, my money is decreasing rapidly at constant speed.
its either movie dates w the gfs tmr if nthg goes wrg
or out w the cheeena; hazel:D
& harith home ltr[:

i knw its wrg of me t say this when
i told him t stop seeing each other for the timebeing but
i miss dear-superman like cheeseballs

on wednesday, i will be the one t care<3

Monday, November 5, 2007

thank god! thank god! thank god!
*jumping up&dwn for joy*
i did that hot hot hot topic
call VENICEEEEEEE!:D
what abt you humans out there?

you must have had a map when someone else dont
because you found a way t get int my heart when no one else could
for tht i ll treasure you
im sorry for all those recent shits that happen lately
everything is so different now.
im not that same girl anymore.
i did not change int a meanie monster mind you
but, change in a sense that, im not goona be selfish anymore,
jealousy no more, & whtever shit.
im gonna be the last thing on your piority list.
& i love you, i know i do.you should knw it too
i'm sorry. i don't wan t tlose you at the end of the day
i treasure you more than you ever think i do
im trying t learn my lesson
& nvr t repeat the same mistakes again.

oh yes, i wanted it t end, but i guess not
its not over baby.
it's just the beginning
i need you now, yes i do.
i still crave for your morning & night messages;
those sweetnothings, those late night calls.
do you knw why?
because you are my hometown superhero:D

as promise, poem reading on monday<3

Sunday, November 4, 2007

ouh, hello fakeness

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i curse,i swear alot this few days.
dont ask why im not sure either.pffft
oh t __, hate me for all i care
i dont mind not having friend like you.
your fakeness turn me off.
i cant wait wait t see girlfriends tmr[:
venice venice venice
pls appear tmr!

boyf, make a one minute performance
late last night for me.
ouh how cute. silly. sweet he is[:
even the ghost laughed at him!
bright star. north star. hafiz love, my rockstar<3>
okay bye, im off t ROME
as soon as Os ended!
say WOWWWWWWWW(:

Saturday, November 3, 2007

pinch me, i'm not in my senses.

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beware: dont read! im goona hurt oh-so-innocent-ppl feelings

O lvls will end three days from now,
thats means shopping, meeting ups w longlost friends,datess[:
meeting up w rach, fikka aftr like 74392 days since i saw them.
chinese tuit cum movie dates w hazel, my new found bestfriend.
bitching w lesbian ptner & midnight monster.
shopping&more shopping w ashikinnn!
meet ups w some of my dear new friend.
& last but not least,
theme park w my dearest lovable schoolgfs.
they dont knw abt this outing but i decided t give them a surprice
this coming mondayy[:
but ive got t sacrifice one of them cos i only got
four pathetic tickets):
plus im gonna hunt for a job w them &
lots&lots of $ will be coming my way![:
& dating w boyf? im not sure abt anything right now.
ive hurt him wayy t many and it isnt fair for him
when i dont trust him completely

oh & t ___, you may not see your name up there
dont ask me why. im not sure either.
you are full of fakeness.
like that spammer who use t spam my tagboard,
you even create a fake friendster account t fool ppl
like wth uh.you even leave stupid 'evidence' behind.
i jolly well knw that's your cousin w dht email add
but you claim that he's your friend
but ltr you claim that mayb his your cousin.
& that girl whom you stole her pictures from her myspace
t create a fake frienster profile & yadeeeyadee
are you like sick or smthg?

& congratulation you got my boyf scolding me,
asking me t change or whtever shit due t that
recent conflict we had w/o him finding out who's at fault.
myb ltr he's gonna scold me or even claim that
"you are not maya. where's that old maya?"
or maybe he's just gonna ignore me
cos he dont love me anymore because t him
ive turn int a mean monster.

im sorry if [whoever you are] got hurt
but i did warn you starting of my post.
call me a mean monster for all i care,
but your meaner.

oh baby, call me or leave me a msge if you still love me.
asking your friend t do it is a bad idea?
i love you verymuch.
i ll be waiting.

Friday, November 2, 2007

i understand pain but i dont understand tears. i dont understand why i feel so sad. i dont understand whats wrg w my attitude.dearest, im sorry.im pissed off not because you came late nor am i pushing you away.really, theres nothing wrg. its just my fucking attitude.im sorry you bailed at your parents, skipped SS lesson, broke promise t your friends & skip prayer because of me. im sorry.its all my fault. i cant go on hurting you anymore/ the ppl ard you who deserve more attention than i do. i dont deserve your love at all. your day turn out t be shitt when its suppose t be great w your family, friends, all thanks t me. selfish me.im sorry, i dont knw whats wrg w me today but all i knw is that i cant go on hurting you. i love you very much still<3

*insert sad loooong face*

Thursday, November 1, 2007

food&nutrition was allright okay
oh baby, vitamin C came out as one of the answer
& im grinning from ear to ear[:
three more pprs to conquor & i ll be all free
it ll mark the end of my secondary school life!
( if i pass Os that is. god, save me pls)

lets pray that venice came out for social studies
venice.venice.venice
im sure i will get a distinction on you
there ll be no more nine marks since
i know now wher my mistakes lie
god! let venice appear in 2007 ppr pls!

i cannot wait t go t school tmr,
t complete physic ppr
because aftr that, i ll be meeting boyf
aftr like 1564479 days.
(okay bedek!)