Friday, October 31, 2008

TRICK OR TREAT(?)

Haaaaapy Halloweeeen everybody on earth(!)
I was being forced to watch The Coffin today. Thank God, it wasn't that really scary except for those f-ugly faces, huahuahua. I'm meeeting baby tommorow again to get his holgaa. Yaphoooooo!! I'm so excited and i don't know why. Haha
Oh! & Lala baby, don't worry or be scared about it. I know very well how you feel. I'm sure you will get over it real soon. (:

it's a lovestory, baby just say yes.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

LOVE IS MORE THAN JUST
A GAME FOR TWO

It wasn't till just now that I realise that love/being in a relationship isn't just a game for two people only. In fact, there's alot more people involve in it. Like friends and family members. I met the new friend today, and I've just notice many things that I should have notice ages ago. I felt kinda _____ (I've got no idea what's the word I'm feeeling, thus the line) when I knew how kinda close she is to the other party's family or even his friends.
Alright, let's not bother about that anymore. Maybe, we just need a little more time to get involve with each other family/friends, haha!

Baby's getting a holga/fisheye sooon and I'm pretty pretty excited about it. Wooooohooo! Hopefully he won't think twice and buy PS3 or whatever shit. !And, I dislike my hair now. It seeems short duh! and I want my looong hair back. >:(
Grow Hair Growwww! But on the other hand, I feel like cutting them again. Especially my fringe. I told you I'm full of contradiction! No?, I didnt? Okay now you know. So long, suckers!

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. -Marilyn Monroe

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL THREE

Eighteen minutes late for school today. But thank God, there's a ten minutes grace period. Thus, I wasn't late afterall. Teeehee! & the friend didn't wait for me in the morning just now because he claim that he's lazy to wait when I know that he's scared of being late. Muahaha! Digital Media Design today was fun, I guess. But kinda boring too. Wooo the contradiction here! & here's what we did for DMD. Sorrry for the quality because I forgot to bring wo de thumbdrive, haaha.


We were given this fruits and an empty basket. & thus we need to cut out the fruit to fit in the basket. And here's how my spastic fruit basket look like;


Aftermath, headed AMKHub for High School Musical 3.


Well, thank you people for accompanying me to catch it even though you guys have already watch it!Appreciate it many many.


And oh yeahh how amazing! We still can go in & watch the show even though someone clumsy out there lost the movietickets. Haha, phew, double phew!


It was nice and a sweeet movie, nothing new actually. It is high school musical afterall, the songs weren't that catchy, but an average nice. "Can I have this dance" is the most favourite one though. A rating of 3 stars to be given but with the appearance of Zac Effron and Matt Prokop(Omg, he reminds me of me bfbfbf, haha!) it's a plus another 1.5 stars. Teehee.


And okay this is the only perfect picture that was taken today. Others was all so blurry, tsk. This shows that someone have a bad photography skills, naaa just kidding!(:

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

OH NO, DONT COME PLEASE!

It's a really long day today. From eight in the morning till six in the evening was spent in school. Yet, it was still fun with those kickass classmate. I'm dead tired and my stomach is giving me hell right now. >:( Please have mercy on me! The red friend is coming like anytime now. And I hate it, very much! She comes and everything will sure go out of place, again. How?! Please forgive me if I'm rude to you people in days to come, haha!
Oh yeah and the class blog is finally created! I hope it won't go dead after a few rounds of updating. Haha, keep it alive Shiokers!

Even when you find yrself ugly on certain days that you go out with me,
I still find you really adorable and pretty. Especially when you give me my most favourite smile in the world. In that split moment, you were the most beautifullest person ever like you are now smilling mcm lembu.

Aww, I'm really sorry for those stuff I said just now. Fuck low self esteem, Fuck cheebong attitude >:( Oh you, You are the sweeetest thing ever! Thank You!

If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough,
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up

Sunday, October 26, 2008

CHEEENA GIRLFRIEND!

Reminiscene back to those days where we are four years younger. It bring back many memories indeed; both the good and the bad. We were close, very close. I so miss those times badly >:( Like how we use to play in the rain, Slacking after school, Helping each other through the good and bad moments,sharing many many secrets, telling never-ending stories, cheating during class test, crapping in class, stealing stuff from the science lab(lol!) doing naughty pranks in the mall which is I know, you know. Haha!
Oh and we even have this book of our own, jotting down many many things in it. But a pity, we threw them away already. Sigh. How I wish we could have them nowww. Then we would laugh at how immature and silly we were back then. Awww, those goood ol' time, (:

Everything seems so far apart right now. We went to a different school and I wonder what will hapen if we were to lose contact some day. But nevertheless, no matter what happen, those memories with you will never be forgotten. And as always, I will be right here if you need any listening pair of ears. Meet up soooon okay? I miss you, alot and let's share never ending story one sunny day! [:

I have madrasah test early in the morning. It was alright, i guess considering the fact that I did not study. I was just reading blindly and understand nuts about hadith. So yeah, the paper was done without any knowledge at all, ok maybe a 10% knowledge. hurhur. But at least arab's way easier. Haha. Let's just hope for an overall pass and I will bid goodbye to the school forever.Yaphooo!(: Thank God tommorow's a holiday which means no waking up early in the morning for eight in the morning German class! Tell me about it, I'm a haaaapy girl now![:

"To realize the value of a friend: Lose one."
I've lost many of them and I don't want to lose anymore.

HAPPY BIRD DAY!


And so, someone turned 17 today. It's none other than my love-to-act-cute friend; Agnes Soh! Have a pleasent and pretty day today baby. May all your wishes come true and I'm glad you love the gift. Be happy happy always and me love you as much as me love my friend. I'm sorry if the above photo ain't that pretty at all. But it's the thoughts that count right? Haha. [:

Saturday, October 25, 2008

SQUEEZE THE QUIZ!

I got tagged by Sera to do the quiz at her blog. Since I've got nothing to do, I might as well do it. I seldom do this kind of quizes so better appreciate them, ha-ha! -.- But you may skip them if you aren't interested though because some answer are just so ______, haha!(:


RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
Hell yeah
2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
Errr, no!
3. Do you enjoy going to sch?
Sometimes.
4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Shopping, buy house! Travel ard the world! Donate, save! HAHA
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
n-o.
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both;D
7.List out 10 favourite things that i like
camwhoring! shopping, sleeping, eating, shitting, farting, gaying, gossiping,crapping,redddd
8. If you have one wish, what will it be?
Happily Ever After! haha
9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Yeah, ;D
10. What's the memorable thing anyone have done for you?
He sang me a Hey there dear DelilahMaya, He perform some silly yet super cute antics in the middle of the night under my block just to cheer me up! Whoots;D
11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Married with adorable kids, haha!
12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
Boyfriend, Friends, Family
13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?
Handphoneeee!
14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Rich but with a status(?)
15. What is your favourite colour?
REDDDDD! It's sexaye.
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
Err, the one who treats me better(?)
18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
It depends on who the person is & how horrible th thing is. Muahaha
19. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
WOAH! I'm in love with you
(with his kinda tone) LMAO!
20. 5 people I have tagged.
Haaafiz, Shaa, Elly Tan, Lala, Kunhou

Friday, October 24, 2008

Strike up The Band
Make the fireflies dance

School on Friday is kinda slacking, thank God. First up was Computing Maths lecture and kudos to me, I pay attention on the new topic that he taught; Sets. It's been months or maybe a year since I last touch on my Amaths topic thus I've already forgotten some of the things there. But nevertheless I still manage to finish up the examples on my own, but some of the question is with the help of my friends, of course.Okay, I'm not bragging here.There's nothing to brag about anyway, haha! I've got no idea what Computer Organisation System lecture was about just now. I was practically looking at pretty girls on the net, nyek!
Friday afternoon was nicely spend with the guyfriend.He's always making me laugh by doing silly billy willy things. Haha! & yknw, I think you are the cutest thing on earth ^^. Thank you for the dorothy perkins and Ben & Jerry. Thank you for splurging god knows how much money on me all this months[: I feel kinda guilty sometimes, sigh. But I will try my best to made it up to you in any way I can.

The Raya's money is decreasing at constant speed right now): How sucky! I've got a couple of things I want to do right now. I want to get my ass off to Haji Lane, I want a dickies backpack but on the other hand, I'm thinking twice of getting it because it's getting so typical nowadays and I'm afraid I will kick it aside like how I did to the other bags. I'm craving to catch a movie now. I'm in need of pencil case, those box kinda type. I find it super adorable. And there's many many other things to list down. So many things to do, so many things to buy, so little time & so little mooolah.): H-O-W? I think I shall cut down on buying nonsensical stuff already which I'm trying real hard now. No kidding.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Before I started ranting on anything let me start by this;

I'm completely shagged, my body is aching terribly right now. Carrying laptop everyday to school is fucking annoying. I think by the end of the semester, I will have grown muscle. Hot or whaaaat? Haha. School is tiring me out, seriously! ):

I'm sick of looking at my previous blog skins, thus a new one here. But, I'm still not satisfied though. Sigh. Sometimes, I wonder if I'm to dependant on my friends. Everytime problems cropped up, I'd give up easily or I would seek the friends for help. How _______. I've got no words to describe thus the line. haha I really can't survive without all my friends, not forgetting the boyfriend too. I realise, this blog is getitng boring! I've got nothing much to rant about already. Maybe I shall just close down this blog and continue with popped-love where only me, myself and I have the pleasure of reading, haha. To add on, I believe I've got no daily readers out there, do I? Haha. I shall see how everything goes.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

KILL FATS, KILLLL!

Let's just say that school today is pretty good compared to the previous days. For some reason, I feel happy and cheerful today. No idea why either but it's a good thing right?(: But, it's rather irritating having to wake up early for schoool and I was late for yesterday and today's 8AM lesson like about half an hour late. This stuff can't go on anymore because attendance won't be marked if we were late for more than ten minutes. How pathetic.

The photoshoot that was planned by the classmates today after school was cancelled due to the heavy downpour. ): How saddening, haha but it's okay Hanwei, we will have it the next time & I'm pretty sure it will turn out great! Meet Natasha instead and have our dinner. Seeing those adorable kids playing at the library was fucking hilarious. Thanks for th day my dear, meet up again real soon yeah? & you look really sweeet ok, you are not fat, I am! >:(

Talking about being fat, I think I'm gaining weight. Horrrible, Vegetable(!) Jogging start this weekend, haha so right Maya! -.- But seriously, I need to lose all those fats in the tummy. Tsk. I have been going to school with the classmate almost everyday and he decided to abandon me tommorow by not coming to school >:( This means, I have to travel to schoool alone tommorow. But it's okay, I'm an independent girl. Oh hell yes, I am! [:

Sunday, October 19, 2008

CHAPTER 20

You Be The Anchor That Keeps My Feet On The Ground,
I'll Be The Wings That Keep Your Heart In The Clouds

It's the nineteenth today thus marking our 20th months together. Henderson Waves yesterday since we can't celebrate today . Journey there sucks because I was sweating like a pig due to those climbing and going down of stairs/slopes and getting kinda lost (nothing new here) The place was errr.. pretty nice I guess. [: Overall, it was a pleasant day yesterday. Thank you for the gift. I love it lots & I hope you like yours too. xoxo

LOVESTORY.

"On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal
car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her
out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was thenplump and
shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.
This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we
had a kid,I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets
were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a
civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the
same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.Our marriage life seemed to
be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by
unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.It was a sunny day. I stood on a
spacious balcony. Dew hugged me frombehind. My heart once again was immersed in
her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.Dew said, You are
the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of
my wife. When we just married, my wifesaid, Men like you, once successful, will
be very attractive to girls.Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew
I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn t help doing so. I moved Dew's hand aside
and said,
You go to select some furniture,O.K.? I ve got something to do
in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and
see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind
although it used to be something impossible to me.However, I found it rather
difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her,
she would be deeply hurt. Honestly,she was a good wife.

Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting
together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew’s body. This
was the means of my entertainment.One day I said to her in a slight joking way,
suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without
a word.Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away fromher.
I couldn t imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out.
Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide
something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently
smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.Once again, Dew said
to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I
could not hesitate any more.When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand.
I ve got something to tell you, I said.She sat down and ate quietly. Again I
observed the hurt in her eyes.Suddenly I didn t know how to open my mouth. But I
had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious
topic calmly.She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked
me softly, why? I m serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer
turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a
man!

At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping.
I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could
hardlygive her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.With a
deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could
own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then
tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart.The woman who had been living ten
years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I
had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected
to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which
had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients.
I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I
found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.She brought up her
divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from me,but I was supposed to give
her one months time before divorce, and in the months time we must live as
normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer
vacation a month later and shedidn t want him to see our marriage was broken.She
passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still
remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question
suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me.I nodded and said, I
remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, I have a
requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce.
From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the
door every morning.I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days
and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed
loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to
face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less mademe
feel uncomfortable.My wife and I hadn t had any body contact since my divorce
intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So
when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son
clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a
sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked
over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us
start from today, don t tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put
her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She
leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her
blouse. I realized that I hadn t looked at this intimate woman carefully for
along time. I found she was not young any more. There were some finewrinkles on
her face.On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being
demolished. Be careful when you pass there.On the fourth day, when I lifted her
up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my
sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer. On the fifth and
sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed
shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc.I nodded.

The sense of intimacy was even stronger.I didn t tell Dew
about this.I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made
me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.She was
picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but
could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown
fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner
that I could carry her more easily, not becauseI was stronger. I knew she had
buried all the bitterness in her heart.Again, I felt a sense of pain.
Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.Our son came in at the
moment. Dad, it s time to carry mum out. He said.

To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an
essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him
tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the
last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom,through the sitting
room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held
her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter
weight made me sad.On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly
move a step.Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold
me in your arms until we are old.I held her tightly and said, Both you and I
didn t notice that our life was lack of such intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I
was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew
opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won t divorce. I'm serious.She
looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She
said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to
you, I won t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I
didn t value the details of life, not becausewe didn t love each other any more.
Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our
child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to
you.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the
door and burst into cry.

I walked downstairs and drove to the office.When I
passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her
favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card.

I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out everymorning until we
are old."

Awwwh ^^ Sad, yet super sweeet right?(:

Friday, October 17, 2008

LOVE SEE NO COLOUR.


Two movie dates for two consecutive days. It was Max Payne on the first and Eagle Eye on the second day. Eagle Eye was way nicer than Max Payne. We were practically talking to each other while watching Max Payne and asking each other riddles. Looking at the hottie beside me is waaaay nicer that Max Payne. I'm done here because I've got no idea what to rant about anymore. I'm not gonna rant about school because there's nothing to talk about. It's a biatch and it's god damn boring. Staring at the four walls is much more nicer, haha!

I'm getting fat and my cheeeks are growing. Damnit!

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

I'm sick of all this too, way sicker than you. I'm lost once again. I hate today. I hate everything that happen today.For all the attitude given to you, I'm sorry. For all those mean things I say about your hair, I'm sorry too. For all the heartbreaks I feed you with, I'm freaking sorry. And now, I believe sorry ain't working anymore. Tell me what I should do? I suck pretty bad don't I? God, I sure sound pathetic now. I need a break.

Broken hearts and last goodbyes, restless nights But lullabies helps to make this pain go away. I realize I let you down Told you that I'd be around. I'm building up the strength just to say; I'm Sorry For breaking all the promises that I wasn't around to keep. It's on me, This time is the last time I will ever beg you to stay. But you're already on your way

Monday, October 13, 2008

SCHOOOL

Stay Close, Don't Go My Pillar Of Strength,
My Light Of Hope.

"Ich hei╬▓e Mayaaa."
"Mein deutscher name ist Natalie."

Surprise oh surprise, German class is the best among all the other modules today. It wasn't that bad as I thought it will be. Yet, it's still not as sexaye as French. Sigh. Scratch that, it was nice learning the German A-B-C song and those pronounciation even though it sounds pretty weird and funny. Don't ask me about the rest of the module because it was super boring like shiaaat and I kept yawning for god knows how many times. Let's just hope for a better tommorow which I doubt it will hurhur. What do you expect when there's a total of four hours of lecture tommorow. To add on, lesson starts at eight in the morning. How pathetic.

Dear God, make me strong, make him strong, make us strong. Will you?
Don't let any shits happen again. I'm begging you.
because I sense something bad is gonna happen soon);
Thursday please come faaaast. I'm dying already. IMHAW so much.]];

Friday, October 10, 2008

FAVOURITE GIRLS.

Roamed around Changi Airport with the girls today. It's been some time since we last saw each other and some things never change ever since secondary school.

*going home time*
M: waaaaa, mesti bus banyak orang.
N: Ramai not banyak.
R: No more secondary school already.

So you see I've always been making this grammer mistakes since secondary school and there's always the girls to corrrect the mistakes. Yet, I can't seeem to get it right all the time. I wonder why. Alright, back to the topic. After having our brunch at the airport, walk aimlessly before heading to Ehub! and and and we did this
...
..
.

since we got nothing else to do & there ain't any nice movie right now. Ok, just ignore that little boy.




Go figure who score is whose.

& I believe we can do much better than this due to some reason which is for us to know and for you people to find out. I seriously miss those goood old times where I have bowling lessons with the chilhooooodmates. Super fun I tell you. Yet now, I seriously have no idea where all of them are. Home sweeeet Home after that and we bump into quite a number of people today.

Schoool's starting sooon and I want to shop for stationaries. My stationaries went missing and I can't find them anywhere. Shiaaaat! ok, goodnight all [:

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

BOYFRIEND

Someone turned super himbo today. Grrrr! The angmoh image of bf is goneeeee >:( His fucking irritating new hair colour makes me want to shave his head bald. Tsk. But yknow, I still love you the same no matter how iritating your hair is. Aftermath of screwing his hair, bus-ed to Tampinese to send his phone for repair. Trained to Changi Airport thereafter. I still don't get it. Why the hell do some people label other people as "nenek/makcik/pakcik" when other people eat Nasi Padang. Isn't foood for anyone of any age(?) Not referring to anyone or anything here, ha-ha! Terminal 1 Viewing Gallery was playing sentimental music the whole time.

Many things kept running through my head. I'm all mixed up, I feel lost suddenly. It got better after shedding some tears which I knew I could go on more but sigh, I don't feel goood to cry in front of you. I don't like it to see your worried face. I was just wondering what if one day you couldn't tolerate me anymore. What if one day I said mean things that hurt you deeply? What if one day you lose patience and don't care a hoot about us anymore? What if one day you suddenly care about my flaws? What if one day we got into a big fight and yelled "I hate you" to each other? What if one day my suckish attitude is back and you couldn't tolerate it anymore? What if one day we don't love each other any more? What if one day you suddenly disappear? & what if one day you are not in my future? I'm scared. I'm afraid. I'm looking forward for the future but at the same time I'm not. You name it, contradiction. As much as i want you to be in my future, but I've got no rights to approve or decide on it. Only the above knows, only he have the rights. That is why every night prayer to Him have your name in it.

As cliche as this may sound, but I love you very much. You always accuse me of hating you when you have done mean things to me. But just so you know, no matter how bad you have hurt me, no matter how pissed off I am at you, I have never hated you, not once. I swear. I wish time stops when I'm with you. I wish there's a place for us to go where nothing else matters and live happily ever after there. And today; Thank you for wiping away the tears. Thank you for lending your shoulder. Thank you for kissing my forehead. And most of all, Thank you for giving me chances, one after another. I know how you feel now that school is starting in a few days time for me. But rest assure, the same thing wont happen again. I promise. Because the love we have, the love we have built throughout this many months won't be destroyed.

I'm sorry for this emotional entries. No worries, I'm alright. Goodnight all, sweet dreams(:

GET TOGETHER


Lyna open house yesterday with the Polymates. Only a few turn up yet, laughter still fills the air. Nothing new, I still get 'bullied' by the same people. I guess, there will be more to come since school is reopening soon. It's okay, it will be damn awkward without all those disturbance. So yeah, it's a splendid day today after not seeing them for so long.[:

School's reopening in a few days time & I'm not sure if I'm looking forward for it. -.- I'm still thinking twice about snipping off my long hair. Meeting bf later and I'm super guber excited. [:

Sunday, October 5, 2008

EYECANDY

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But still, this guy is still THE BEST DAMN THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPEN TO ME. The one who can make my heart been fast and the one who can make my heart stop all at the same time. Yknow I love you more than anyone/anything in this world. I thank God for making us possible. [:



i miss you alot(X infinity)

Friday, October 3, 2008

SPELLS L-O-V-E!

You've Always Been The Sun,
Shining Right At Me


I came across this very adorable email where the 4 to 8 Year old toddler was asked the meaning of love and awwww go take a look at their oh-so-cute responds![:

'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.'
Rebecca- age 8

'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.'
Billy - age 4

'Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.'
Karl - age 5

'Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.'
Chrissy - age 6

'Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.'
Terri - age 4

'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.'
Danny - age 7

'Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that.They look gross when they kiss'
Emily - age 8

'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.'
Bobby - age 7

'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.'
Noelle - age 7

'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,'
Nikka - age 6

'Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.'
Tommy - age 6

'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.'
Cindy - age 8

'My mommy loves me more than anybody You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.'
Clare - age 6

'Love is when Mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken.'
Elaine-age 5

'Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.'
Mary Ann - age 4

'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.'
Lauren - age 4

'When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.'
Karen - age 7

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.'
Mark - age 6

'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.'
Jessica - age 8
And last but not least

The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.
Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.
When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said,
'Nothing, I just helped him cry'

Cute ain't them. Awwww. Love is everywhere around you just that you are unaware!

Bbbbby, I love you no matter if you are as short as a dwarf or tall as a giraffe. White as flour or black as a charcoal I will still love you the same, I swear! I was only joking yesterday you should know it baby. I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings but I really didnt mean to. I love you, alot please do remember that [:



Thursday, October 2, 2008

SELAMAT HARI RAYA![:


Festive season's here like finally after one whole month of fasting. Like any other Muslim friends, had house visiting yesterday. It was mainly visiting the grandparents and gathering with the relatives. Asking for forgiveness here and there made almost everyone teared. Basically yesterday was nice with all those catching up stories and little cousin have grown taller some are evn taller than me. Woah(!) Alright, let the phoooootos do the talking now. Not alot of pictures because most of them are super random/candid. Please have mercy on my face, I really got no mood for phototaking yesterday. One of th reason is I'm feel ugly already(because it was counted as the ending of the day) and I was sweating like a pig.


Motherrrrr![:

this is only 1/3 of the whole cousin





Outing continues on the weeeekend and I want to be superrrr rich pretty prease! Haha, [:

To all Muslim friends; Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir and Batin! Forgive all my wrong doings be it hurting you physically or emotionally or whatever-ly. (: