Friday, January 30, 2009

STAR LIGHT, STAR BRIGHT.

Looking up at the dark sky in search for stars, I started to imagine who else is looking up at that same sky. How many people who have got a broken heart beyond repair. People who are crying themselves to sleep. People who just couldn't get themselves to sleep due to whatever reason. And some who are looking up at the stars for some hope and guidance. I wonder if there's anyone out there feeling the same as I am. In fact, I can't figure out how exactly I'm feeling. Weird. I remember telling the friend yesterday about what I'm planning to do next but recalling back now, I doubt I will be able to do that. Talk is cheap. How true. But, on the other hand I believe it's not that I can't do it but it's a matter if I want to do it or not. I believe this logic applies to you too. I very much want a heart to heart talk with you but I know I can't spill out everything while seeing your face. And, for some reason, tonight when I look up at those stars, I miss the old us.

i'll stay close if you want me near, f o r e v e r

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

OFFICIALLY 18.

HAPPY LEGALLY 18TH BIRTHDAY!
Woah! It's time for you to start clubbing, smoking, drinking and whatnot. Do those if you want to get thight slap and beating from me. Muahahaha. A year older and wiser already. Stop playing too much games and buck up on your studies! Oh and, hurrrry get your car license so you could drive me all around Singaporeeee. I'm sorrrry for the recent shits that happen but no matter what happen, you know I still love you, very much. ♥

Goodluck for me tomorrow.
Hello test! I'm not fully prepared for you, you sucker thing! Oh and the best part is, I'm still clueless if there's German common test tommorow. I've dialed the teacher a couple of times but she ain't answering the call. I bet she's somewhere in Germany drinking a cup of kaffe right now. Awesomezxzxz shit!

I don't care what they say, I'm sticking with you...

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Play Pretend.

"In my opinion the best thing you can you do is find a person who loves you for exacly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome what have you, the right person will still think the sun shines out of your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with."
-Juno

It's been one hella wrecked weeek. But nonetheless, I still managed to get over it somehow; with the help of awesome kickass mates. From listening to me complain and whine like a bitch to chatting with me and making me happy about random topics to sending me text messages telling me that everything will be fine to having written in your blog about being there for me and stuff like that to hearing me cry like one pathetic soul in the middle of the night. Thank you so much for everything and to some whom I failed to answer your calls, I'm sorrrry I really didn't mean it
For some whom is clueless on why my week is a wrecked one, dont bother guessing. It's not about school. School's been treating me pretty fine because projects are all completed and handed up. The mission to get started on revising Data Fundamentals today failed ): It's one boring module and I'm pretty sure I will fall asleeep even before completing the first chapter. Darn. I doubt I could even maintain my last semester GPA let alone getting a 3.5 for this semester. Dear God, bless me with awesome goood brain on the 28th Jan pretty prease!

I attended bf advance birthday party yesterday. Everything is nice. Nice family, Good foood & etc. I hope you like the gift even though your mother ruin it by opening them today;x I'm super bored nowwww. No one's entertaining me in msn): Where did all the fun people go to huh? I guess there's only neopet entertaining me tonight. Haha

I've only myself to blame for being such a bitch and read up your chatlog. If only I'm not tt busybody, I wouldn't feel lousy now. Who am I kidding? She's your friend and of course you will continue chatting with her despite promising me that you will chat up with her lesser. And I naively believe that you kept your promise. I dont give two fucks if she's reading this now. I'm just sad, not angry with you. I'm just gonna play pretend and not asking you anything about it even though playing pretend hurts, alot. But quarreling with you, hurts twice as much. On a bright side, this will make me stronger. & Just so yknow, those convo really disgust me alot! Maybe, starting from today I shouldnt think about how you will feel anymore if I do this and that. Because, what do I get in return when I place you at the top of the list? Hah!

Anyway,
Happpy Chinese New Year to all my pretttty Chinese friends(:

Monday, January 19, 2009

One Year And Twenty Three Months

It's the 19th today thus marks our twenty three month together. Another month to go for a full t w o years. Trust me when I say you are the best among the best! If I told everyone about the problems I have with you, about how you treated me, trust me; they would totally agree with me. My very own Christofer Drew you shall always be, teeehee (:
It's been super hectic these few days. I'm almost done for java. All thanks to Wannie for helping me out with the codes yesterday even though she's busy with work. I was an independent girl yesterday. I make a trip down the Esplanade all alone and sat at Haagen Daez with the company of banana split, pleasant music and comfy sofa. Wannie had to make a trip btw Haagen Daez and the theater to and fro. So sorry about that babe. It was pretty nice and relaxing even though I feel kinda lonely >:\

Today started with German oral examination. It wasn't that bad. At least I could spell out Deutsch but I misunderstood her second question. I thought she's asking for my home telephone number thus I happily say my home number in German to her but the friend say that she's asking for handphone number instead-.- But hey, it's a number afterall. Let's just hope she will close one eye about it. Flash Animation practical test was bullshit. But thank God, the friend help me out with it. Thanks to her for the class diagram too. Omgawd, no her I will sure die one! She know who she is, so thank you many many baybeh. DataF and Java project deadline tomorrow + answering question given(shiaaaat!) and after that I will totally be free from alien codings. But sad to say, there's still exams and common test for it. MotherFcuker! Oh well~

Oh and I'm still considering whether to change the blog url because some people love to share my life with her momma or even her granny for all I know (Maybe because her life ain't as pretty as mine -.-) I don't mind you reading it but come on there's really not a need to let your momma see this. If she see it and keeep her mouth shut, then that's okay for me. But she talks about it with her friends and stuff. For all I know, bad stuff about me. It ain't pleasant if my mom happen to hear it. For once, put yourself in my shoes or rather my mom's and reflect on it. You wouldn't want people to talk abt your daughter saying how bad she is or whatever shit.... I'm pretty sure you know who you are. Talk to me if you are not happy about it. But hey, I'm nice and I don't mention your name here. I really do not want to change the url because I like it neither do I want to privatise this blog. I hope you stop all this shiat. But if things really get out of hand, I shall do something about it. If only, there's such thing as banning certain people from reading your blog. Is there? Tell me if there is. hurhur

I'm done ranting for now. Show some loveeeee people and click on the tobelerone advrtisement!(:

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Smelly Disgusting Projects

Take me to a place of no return. Let's G-O, GO!
I've been reading the java project question and I'm beginning to fall alseep already. It's in alienic language. I understand nuts. feel stupid. I wish I'm born with smart brains. I envy these people. I don't mind having an ugly betty face but with genius brain.OOP class today, those errors, I couldn't handle them. The friend have to help me edit them. It's always been like that. I feel grateful to her, I always do but there's no way I could depend on her forever can I. I'm lacking way behind and I hate this feeling. It makes me feel so inferior. Cheeseballs! I even have the feeling that I will flunk the exams and being kick aside alone when Year 2 comes. Hah, whatever~ Just kill me already. And no, I'm definitely not looking for anyone to sympathise with me here. I just need a hug, right NOW! >;(

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

HOT-TALL-PRETTY GIRLS

I didn't manage to catch Victoria Secret FS which was aired the other day. Thus, the friend help me download it. Thanks so much Hanwei(: The models are so effffing hot + oh-so-pretttty! *grins with envy* And even though their fringe is center parted, they still look prettty. Amazing ain't it? Imagine me with center parting, omg spasticism spells!

Mirander Kerr is my favourite among the favourites.


Photos Credit : The Insider.
Hot Body + Pretty features and smile. Omg, georgeous to the max please!

Anyway, school's torturing me every single day, nothing new >:\ Projects deadline are just around the corner. Exams are coming. I simply suck at time management. I'm only good at delaying everything till the very last minute. Oh and did I tell you that the results for quizes/test that I had are all super bad. Overall for German; C+. Not to worry about it because there's still oral and the final exam to help me with. DMD common test; C. And the previous OOP quiz that I had; a freaking 30%. There's no way I could get the same GPA as I did the last semester. Goodness! Note to self: Revise my work everyday and stop daydreaming/sleeping in class! Oh and Nuffnang is being so kind. There's another advertisment coming in on the 18th and the number of money is so increasing. (: Wheeeeee..

Bf's grandnanny left the family in the evening today. I extend my utmost condolences to the family. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya. Amin.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

The last something that meant anything

I've finally got to meet ZamiraAshikin today. It's been months since the last meet up with her. Even though just now was only a short few hours kinda meet up, but I'm still happy being able to see her. Kinda relieved pouring out all my troubles to her (Ok, maybe not ALL due to time constraint) and sharing stories & how amazing! She still know me best despite months of not meeting up. Not only that, but those long ago stories that I share with her, she still remember them till now. Rahh! I seriously miss being a secondary sch kid nowwww ):

This quizzz seeems prettty interesting.
Some of the answer are pretty true/near to true while some are ridiculousy funnny and some didn't make any link at all. Here you go, just for entertainment;

Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

*****

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Broken Man- Boys Like Girls. (Not okay. Because I want to run away :?)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Can't have You - Jonas Brother (o.O Anyhow people cannot anyhow make friend with me. Haha)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Always - Blink 182 (LMAOL -.-)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Love to be loved by you - Marc Terenzi (Not only today but everydayyyy!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Speechless - The Veronicas (I seee no link here actually)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
It's Not Over- Secondhand Serenade (It's not over, It's just the beginning. *laughs. Motto or whaaaat -.- )

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Three Days Grace- Never too late (I'm never late, I'm always punctual. Haha, rubbish!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Candles- Hey Monday ( They are my candle, They are my light. :D )

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Love Hurts- Incubus

WHAT IS 2+2?
Awake- Secondhand Serenade (Maths keeep me awake. I love Mathssss! -.-)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Got me going crazy- Jonas Brothers (Yes!Yes! Trueeeee they make me crazy at times)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Two weeks from Twenty- Yellowcard

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
The Math- Hilary Duff

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Stay the same- Joey McIntyre

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Baby We're Invincible- A rocket to the moon

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Whatever it takes - Lifehouse

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Cinderella Story- Plain White T's (LOL! Then must wear Cinderella outfit also uh uh -.-)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
You are not alone- Michael Jackson (Means got angel will be with me forever&ever. &Shili!Don't laugh okay this song he sing veryy nice. )

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
You fucked up my life- Blink 182

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
P.S: I love you- All American Rejects (Hell yes! I love my friends)

WHATS THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Breathless- Shayne Ward ("So beautiful you leaving me" That would be the worst thing everrrr]]; )

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
BB Good - Jonas Brothers ( Everyone will be goood to me then I will die -.-)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
The last something that meant anything- Mayday Parade ("It's called breakup, Cause it's broken" I hope this neverrrr happen *cross fingers*)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Jamie All Over- Mayday Parade

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Menjaga Hati- Yovie&Nuno (A pretty sad song though );)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
The Man who cannot be Moved- The Scripts ( Not true luh, I can be moved easily one ;x Haha)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
One Year Six Month- Yellowcard

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
A little Bit Longer - Jonas Brother

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Forever&Always- Taylor Swift

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Without You- Hinder

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
If I were a Boy- Beyonce

I TAGGED:
If you think you are prettty, just do this[:

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

NEVER SHOUT NEVER


I actually have to think for god knows how long before i could remember what I wanted to blog about. I reckon, my memory's failing me. A really sad thing. I've no idea why, but the appetite seems to be so poor this few days and whole body ached like no one's business. The friend say I lack of exercise, that's the reason why. True indeeed. It's beeen months since I last did any form of exercise. I confidently tell her I want to start jogging soon but right this moment, the thought of going jogging makes the whole body ached even more. Sleeeping is way way better!(:

Something make my morning a prettty one. I was all ahhhh-ed and awww-ed and wowww-ed seeing someone which actually look like bf at the plug in music page. I have to thank my chinese shifu for telling me about it.

Christofer Drew(!)

Seee the resemblance? woah hehe(:
Ahhhhhh! I cannot stop seeing and comparing the photos at CMath lecture just now. :D

Another day of school tomorrow. And I'm contemplating of skipping it. Hah,better not...
Perish that thought Maya.):

Friday, January 2, 2009

Akinator


They didnt agree on much, they rarely agreed at all. They fought all the time and challenged each other everyday, but in spite of their differences, they had one thing in common; they were crazy about each other. - The Notebook

I skipped school today and went to watch Bedtime Stories with the favourite boy. It was pretty funny and entertaining but at the same time kinda lame. And, the two kids are just too adorable. Bedtime Stories = 3 / 5. I have yet to watch Angus, Thongs And Perfect Snogging luh and I think it ain't showing anymore. Dammmit! I've got no other choice, but to watch it online.):

No virus, no scam, Try this: cooool shitzxz man.

And when I think of my own character, this stupid genie give me this;
GRRRRRRRRRRR!


I introduce the game to Agnes and bf and they keeep playing. When I was about to continue playing, the stupid genie keep saying there's too many people playing and I have to play them a bit later. So, I beg bf and Agnes to stop playing so I could have a higher chance to play and they are such a meanie they didn't listen to me and continue playing.): Moral of the story: Never intro anything nice to these two people. Okay, just joking!(: