Saturday, December 6, 2014

9939 miles / 15995.27 km / 8636.75 nautical miles

if these sheets were the states, and you were miles away, 
i'd fold them end over end to bring you closer to me.
because i don't sleep at all without you pressed up against me. 
i settle for long distance calls, i'm lost in empty pillow talk again.

we are never a clingy couple but i miss hfz so freaking much even though it's been only a week. geez wouldn't want to imagine him having outstation for three months in future if his job requires (urgh) 

i was just about to prove to him that i am able to cope well with life w/o him by my side but... shit happens! lost my debit on thursday and i only found out that it's missing from my wallet yesterday. i am such a total klutz it irks me sometimes. i can imagine hfz bragging about how important his existence is in my life and telling me our favourite "what would you do w/o me?" line. 

but on a positive note, counting down nine days till i get to see my baby! 

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

how to survive 2 weeks of long-distance-relationship

things you do when your significant other is away:

1. go over to your grams because you get to:-

a. stuff yourself silly with lots of (junk) food as you have amazing aunts who brought over good food 

b. binge watching love you mr. arrogant and other malay dramas and only malay because you just have to accommodate and not be selfish to your indonesian helper 

(on a side note, it improves my malay and dang i am actually hooked to the episodes of mr. arrogant)

2. take naps. lots of naps

3. stare into space wondering what your significant other is doing at the other side of the world

4. doing calculations in your mind and figuring out what time/day he is living in

5. waiting for his text messages/calls

things you should do when your significant other is away:

1. visit and read up on BTOs to prep yourself up for your 2015 plans

2. squats

3. tummy workout

4. more squats

5. even more squats

Saturday, November 29, 2014

photos love messages

as i'm drafting this post in the comfort of coffee-bean at my favourite place in singapore (read: changi airport), hfz is soundly sleeping in his hotel room at philadelphia. when he told me that he will be having the hotel room all to himself and that it will be so lonely sleeping alone, i decided to diy-ed him a gift to keep him "company" every night

so is your significant other going to a far away country for three weeks like mine do? no idea what gift to get him/her? fret not because i'm here to help you haha.

here's all you need:
1. box from daiso
2. cotton balls from watson
3. heart-shape stamper from popular
4. photos from years of memories

we have tons of photos together from when we were sixteen that i have difficulty in choosing out some for printing. printed 17 of my favourite photos out because that is the number of days hfz will be gone

so how is this gift suppose to accompany your significant other lonely nights you ask? well.. i wrote short messages for hfz to read each day for every night before he goes to sleep. act as a reminder for him that even though he is miles away from home, he is always loved /cheesy alert!/ 

Sunday, November 23, 2014

tiramisu hero

sorry to start the post with what seems like a narcissistic selfies of me but i just want to highlight how proud i am of myself for restraining my itch to go to the salon and get my hair straighten. definitely love the feeling of embracing my natural hair even though i am so freaking annoyed at how frizzy it can get each time after hair wash. apart from that, no complains. just can't wait for it to grow longer.

anyways. got to hang out with my fav uni girl and we had fun walking in circles trying to find the tiramisu hero. gawd google map - (insert no.) when we both visited a cafe and got lost | us - 0. we are useless at reading maps  but that won't stop us from hunting them cafes down

we were both feeling waffles and it was as good as gelare's which is my all-time-fav ice-cream with waffles. it was nice catching up with each other's life. she made me miss attending night classes so bad sigh :( 

we spent close to two hours catching up, taking photos and videos (haha check out my hair flips!) it was pretty dark by the time we left the café.

no points for getting the right answer tho! or maybe you can score yourself free ice tea by trh!

the tiramisu hero
121 tyrwhitt rd, singapore 207548
11am to 10pm daily

eating, catching up and photo/video taking doesn't stop there because we headed to have some good hongkong food at streats right after that. we are just so freaking weird to have them real food right after dessert but hey that's just how we roll ;) we took videos of us eating because we want to see how we look like noming. but don't worry i shall spare you from watching unless of course you want to watch me eating? haha

i love how weird my friends are. what? weirdos are fun people okay.

Friday, November 7, 2014


the week has been painfully emotional and heartbreaking having to witness the pain she is going through. throughout 23 years of my life, she has always been my physically healthy granny. she was spared with all those nasty heart conditions and what-have-yous but was diagnosed with dementia two/three years ago. even so i could greet her and have actual conversation with her. i would always look forward to days where she slept at my place. even if it means having her scaring us all by her imagination that someone is watching us from the bedroom or having sleepless night by her constant bugging of "i want to go home / i want to see your uncle / i want to go to the wash room" i definitely wouldn't mind all those vulgarities coming out from her mouth whenever we watches the telly together. it is pretty funny and entertaining at times.

it pains me how we couldn't hear all those now. it pains me to see lying on the hospital bed for the very first time. our helper told me that when she was well she used to eat a lot in the day and night. but all that she is getting now is cans of ensure milk through the feeding tube. it's no wonder i hear her stomach growl so loud even after those feeding sesh.   

it must be a blessing in disguise to have my gap year now. i get to take care of her and spend more time with her, (at least) making it up to her for those days where i haven't been visiting her and for those first few years of my life where she took great care of me. this is definitely nothing compared to all her sacrifices which is why she is never forgotten in my prayers. as each day passes, i am a step closer to losing her but... i know i will never ever be ready to lose her. 

i love you, nenek.

Wednesday, November 5, 2014


figured that i haven't surprise hfz for the longest time so yesterday i decided to appear at his workplace. told him to meet a seller at his workplace's mrt station for me. the moment he saw me standing there instead he was grinning and smiling for ear to ear just like a little boy. sometimes the littlest things in life mean so much more :)

gee i love this man so much only god knows <4

Saturday, October 25, 2014

satay by the bay

perks of having gap year? i get to meet my friends for catch-up sesh. met up with nabilah for satay by the bay since we have never been there before. the food was good (not sure if it's genuinely good or i am just starving) and the place was fun-filled with caucasian families for some reason. one adorable boy saw our food and he made a slow-mo walk towards our table with his eyes wide open staring at them goodies getting ready to devour them. he reminded me of baby chucky it was quite scary. 

the only lowlight of the place was the stools. it was so pathetically small it made my butt so un-comfy

if you don't already know.... i have a love-hate relationship with my height. i know most of my friends would love to be as tall but it made me so insecure, i felt like a freaking giant next to them sometimes. humble brag? nay

hfz and i have "busy" matchmaking our good friends together and i'm glad it has been working well thus far. hoping to hear some good news very soon. gee i should have done this earlier. if this turns out great, i might consider becoming a match-maker as a career. bet it would be fun. the first few clients would definitely be my friends because i just cannot wait to be a bridesmaid. (note how i say bridesmaid and not a bride! haha)  

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

we both weirdos!

for brunch today, i ventured to the east with zamira for the newly opened muslim-owned cafe

we picked the benedict, ala dol and shoestring fries along with home made ice tea. portion was pretty big and we had trouble finishing them up. 

we weren't really feeling their egg benedict. too eggy for my liking. the salmon, on the other hand won zamira's heart but not mine. it was... urgh!

i'm digging their coconut ice-cream and attap chee (my fav!) but apart from that the crepes were too hard for me. nonetheless thumbs up for creativity and fancy name, ala dol!

their shoestring fries won me over. it was delish! if i were to make a second trip back i would definitely order them again. maybe i would even sneak in mac's seaweed sauce pack in and eat them altogether. (gawww i'm obssessed with mac's seaweed fries i had them almost every week)
sarah's the pancake cafe
east village #01-62
mon - thu: 09:00 - 22:00
fri - sat: 09:00 - 23:30
sun: 09:00 - 22:00

after stuffing ourselves silly while talking about how we promised to get pregnant at the same time (meaning: we have to make them babies at the same time too i know don't worry we got it all planned out during the two hour brunch sesh /winks/), we explored the dead mall at east village to find the perfect spot to take photos. because that's what girls do right? 

my kind of fun! 
how to know if i really treasure/appreciate your friendship with me?

1. i make you stand/sit awkwardly with me in the public to do them fake-laughs just to snap good picture.
 (refer to above) (reference two)

2. i make you run like a fool at the beach to capture the perfect video shots (reference)

brunch date ended with both of us wondering how we are still good friends even when we have nothing in common. we then conclude that it was because we are both weird. couldn't agree more. i mean... come on who promise their friends to make babies at the same time as they do? only us, i bet! ;) 

Monday, October 13, 2014

huh! what is school?

it's only right to start off the graduation post by thanking my parents because well this post would be impossible without the support they rendered. i am fortunate and blessed enough to have the opportunity to study w/o worrying about money matters. every single time a schoolmate complains about how expensive our tuition fees are or how much they have to sacrifice just to save that thousand dollars, i felt so so grateful i want to run to my parents and give them a bear hug.  there were days when i would be so stressed out over my assignments/examinations and my dad would randomly popped into my room and ask me if he could help with anything (which was prolly his way of keeping me sane) and then, there's mom who is forever worried about me not eating well due to the juggling between work and school. during fasting month when i have class, she would specially packed food for me and asked me to bring desserts to class as well because she thinks breaking fast in class is like having a mini party. haha what would i do without them.

of course there is the sweetheart boyfriend. occasionally sending/picking me up from school. there was one time where i broke down in the car right after a project meeting because i was très overwhelmed with work events and school assignments. hfz reminded me to think of god. so unlike him but wow. + 50 points mister. that is husband material right there ;) also, he deserves another 50 points for all the times i neglected him due to mugging for examinations and yet he still sticks around. gee i've indeed found myself a keeper. great job maya!

mm i can thank myself as well right? for being such a warrior (yes!) to juggle between work and school. who would have thought i would come this far! i mean... i was never serious about my studies back in high school/polytechnic and was grateful when i managed to (borderline) pass my subjects. but hey hey guess who managed to score them distinctions now?

Thursday, October 2, 2014

seperation anxiety

30 September 2014 marks my last day at f.a. having to work there for 18-months has been an enjoyable journey. no doubt, it was definitely very hard to bid goodbyes to my bosses and colleagues that are ever so supportive and sweet but that's pretty much what everyone has to go through in life i guess. occasionally, i raved about how supportive and sweet my bosses are on twitter and they are no doubt very nice beings. i am so blessed to have cross paths with them.

i am having some kind of separation anxiety right now. still adjusting my body to quit waking up at 7am. first two days of being jobless have been pretty productive. i started doing my workouts back (but had sinful meals after that so i'm not too sure where this is going) it's nice having so much me-time before kick-starting on a full time job. geez the mention of full time job makes me want to snoozzzzzze but hey... i've got days/weeks/months to worry about that. so let the rants begin later...


in other news, lee min ho came to singapore again few days back and being the fan that i am i waited for three freaking hours at causeway point. it was worth it though. well, at least i get to see him for 45 minutes this time round.

check out how close i was to the stage! 



wow... wait what! is he waving at me?!






honestly not a fan of korean doods but he is prolly the only one worth fangirling for, bloated face or not. for more lmh feasting;

/swoon away guys.... swoon away/

Saturday, September 20, 2014

$AUD 166

not sure if i'm making a wise move here by spending AUD 166$ on a full set of regalia which i will only be wearing for an hour. my heart is currently bleeding now thinking of other items i could get with that money. gawd i hope i won't regret this.

Tuesday, September 16, 2014


monday morning saw me feeling fainty in the crowded train on the way to work, scaring my parents and hfz altogether. geez i'm such a paper. paper me managed to score two days off work though

Sunday, September 14, 2014

picnic date

sundays are prolly my favourite day of the week because i get to lie down in bed for the whole day. eating in bed. watching tv series in bed. reading in bed. blogging in bed. long story short; my bed is my lover on sundays <3

we had jolly good time at the beach eating sushi and pizzas yesterday. the sea view weren't as fantastic but hfz's face and "big man" moustache made up for the view at the park. we listened to my collection of  music playlist, stare at each other's face, took silly photos and even video! i thank god for the man above for entertaining to my silly request such as holding my hand and running around the beach just so i could get nice shots for my short video clip.

i am truly satisfied with the outcome. ig sucks for limiting the video limit to 15secs thus the upload on youtube. now now, what else should i ask force hfz to do next?